I don't know what to do. My life is so screwed up right now. I love my girlfreind of 13 years so much it hurts. She just told me Wednesday morning that shes cheated on me and is leaving me. This is out of the blue and I never would have guess this was coming. As much as i feel i should hate her and call her every fitting name in the book, all i can think about is the fact that i'm losing the love of my life. My first instinc was to forgive her and attemp to repair our problems, but shes claiming that she fell in love with this guy andcan't help her feelings. We have a 10 yr old son and 3 older kids from her previous marriage that we are raising. This isn't the life that i chose,  but when your in love, you make a commitment and stick with it thru thick and thin. I don't know what point i'm trying to make right now, I don't know anything right now. I am completly lost and completely on the edge. I'm freaking out and dont know what to do. I don't even know why i wrote any of this down.